Out of My Comfort Zone

Out of My Comfort Zone

Twice this week, I’ve been taken out of my comfort zone.   One happened at home.  One happened out on a ride.  One was a matter of life.  One was a matter of death.  Both involved animals.

I am a huge animal lover.  I love most animals, but I’m not a big fan of gerbils, mice and rats and I am afraid of birds.  Don’t ask why; I have no idea.  One of my grandmothers was also afraid of birds.  The other one was the entire opposite; she had a huge Audubon Society Book of Birds and everything!  I do, however, think birds are beautiful creatures and love observing them in the wild and at a distance.  Rats and gerbils, and mice?  Not so much.  My mom had a pet rat named Peppy growing up and she loved that rat.  Eww.

Last week we had been having a lot of rain so our pool was very full.  I was sitting at the kitchen table and happened to glance out and saw something moving in the water.  “Crap!”  I thought,  “A bird is in the pool.”  I watched it for a second, thinking that a little birdie was taking a birdie bath in my nice big pool.  Nope.  It didn’t move like a bird.  Double crap.  “It’s a mouse.”  Okay.  I had two choices.  I could let the little mousie swim until it drowned itself or try to fish it out.  The problem with trying to fish it out – the net of our skimmer was half gone.

“Alrighty”, I thought, “The cousins are arriving today and all the kids will want to swim.”  I couldn’t bear the thought of dead mouse germs being in the pool with these children that I hold so dear.  I was trying not to think about the fact that the darn thing had probably pooped and peed in my pool the moment it fell in.

I steeled myself and marched outside to face the enemy.  As I rounded the pool to get a closer look at him, I noticed one of his wild animal brethren in the pool as well.  A little frog was happily swimming along in the shallow end of the pool by the steps.  He was not nearly as intimidating as the not mouse, but RAT swimming along in the deep end! 

The frog was much easier to catch and remove from the pool area.  It only took me a couple of tries with the “ratty” skimmer that I had.  The rat, was much more wily.  It took me many more attempts to get the rat onto the portion of the net that was still attached to the skimmer and then keep him there long enough for me to fling him out of the pool.  The dumb, or should I say smart nasty rodent would jump off of the net every time I brought it up underneath him back into the pool where he would sink a few feet before rising and recommencing his paddling.  Each time he sank I would hope that he wouldn’t bob to the surface.  Alas, each time he would, beady little eyes shining and whiskers twitching.

Finally, I managed to corner the critter and, after several more attempts, flung him once and for all out of the pool.  He lay on the rocks for a few moments and then trundled off under the fence.  Good riddance, I thought.  Perhaps he’s become a nice feast for one of the gorgeous red-tailed hawks that frequently watch me running by from the telephone wires near our house.

A couple of days ago, I went out cycling to do hill repeats.  I was initially planning to go with a couple friends, but they both had to back out, so I went solo.  It was a quiet time of the morning so I figured I wouldn’t see too many cars and was hoping to not see too many dogs.  As I was cruising along, I happened to glance into the tall grass by the side of the road.  I could see something lying in the grass.  As I got closer, I could see the fresh blood stain on the asphalt.  The shape was a dog and, unfortunately it was dead.  My heart sank, especially when I saw that he had on a bright orange collar. 

Confession time: as odd as this sounds, I am afraid of dead animals.  I think it stems from watching too many horror movies as a kid.  Logically, I know that they can’t “spring back to life”, but that doesn’t make any difference to me.  When are our fears really logical? 

I kept riding, but my thoughts kept returning to that poor pup.  He’d had a collar so he must have been someone’s pet.  Maybe he really wasn’t dead, only stunned and would have wandered back towards home by the time I got back.  Maybe his owners would have already found him.  But then again, what if they hadn’t?  What if he was far from home?  Would his owners ever find him?  What if the family had kids?  How would they ever know what happened to their boy?  Or, what if they lived in one of the houses close by and came upon him after several days in the hot August heat?  I knew I should go back and at least see if his collar had an ID tag.  But I really don’t like dead animals...

Again, I steeled myself.  As I turned around to head back from my first hill repeat, I looked for the dog.  I didn’t see him, but then, I wasn’t paying close attention as to where it was the first time.  On the way back out though, I looked more closely.  Sadly, there was his little body just past the four-way stop.  I guess I missed it being on the other side of the road.  I remembered that I had some surgical gloves in my repair kit.  I stopped just beyond him, donned a glove, and walked slowly towards the grass where he lay. 

He was a cute little guy, about thirty-to-forty pounds with markings like a German shepherd.  He had floppy ears and looked well cared for.  I turned the collar on his neck and my heart sank even further as I saw the brass ID tag.  It still had a drop of fresh blood on it.  If only I’d been a few minutes sooner.  Perhaps I could have done something for him. 

There was one thing that I still could do.  I called his owner and left a message.  I hated to leave that message, but I had to let his owner know.  I would have wanted someone to do the same if it had been Sneakers or any of my furry babies.

I continued on my ride, slower than before and with a heavy heart, thinking about animal lovers versus the non-animal lovers.  I saved that stupid rat’s life; I would have felt horrible if I’d let it die knowing that I could have saved it.  Some motorist hit a dog that was obviously someone’s pet and left it to die.  Joe tried to rationalize it for me – maybe the person didn’t know they’d hit the dog, maybe they didn’t have time to react, etc.  It was the middle of a sunny morning and the sun was in the other direction.  I’m sorry, but I just can’t wrap my head around that.  

No one likes to go out of his or her own comfort zone, but to truly grow as a person, I think we need to from time to time.  Life is about choices and about change.  We’ve got to roll with the punches, regardless of what life throws at us.  I know by doing so, it helps me be a better mom, a better person, and a better athlete.  I guess I just wish more people felt the same way.

R.I.P., Sandra

This past February, I posted about the wife of one of Joe's Endurance Nation's teammates on my Caring Bridge site.  She had a rare liver tumor called Epithelioid hemangioendothelioma (EHE).  The only cure  was a liver transplant.  Sandra battled hard for over six months, but today her husband, Matt, made the agonizing decision to withdraw life support.  Sandra passed away peacefully and without pain this afternoon.  She had rallied hard and Matt was a champion, fighting tooth and nail to get her the best medical care and answers that he could.  Unfortunately, her heart, liver, kidneys and the rest of her body just couldn't bounce back from all the damage and infections it endured during the past six months.  

I only met Sandra once at Ironman Louisville last year, but she impressed me with her kindness.  Sandra had a wide warm smile.  She was an award-winning photographer.  You can see some of her work on her Caring Bridge site:
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/sandrasamojeden.

When Joe raced IM LOU, my hair was just starting to grow back and I had just started the reconstruction process.  I was still going through treatments and my arm was still swelling pretty badly.  Sandra snapped a picture of Joe stopping to give me a kiss during the run.  I cried when she showed it to me.  A little less than a year before, I had gotten my diagnosis of breast cancer.  We had been through a lot; to get to that point was precious to us both.

My heart aches for Matt and Sandra's family, but particularly for Matt.  I can't imagine having to make the choice he did.  It was so apparent that he loved Sandra with all his heart and soul.  I would hope that, put in a similar situation, I could be as strong, level-headed and steadfast as Matt was.

To honor Sandra's memory or that of someone you loved, please consider becoming an organ donor.  There are living and non-living donations.  You can choose what you donate and what you don't.  Remember, even by donating a pint of blood, you are helping give someone else the precious gift of life.

Here are some links to check out:

http://organdonor.gov/index.html


http://donatelife.net/understanding-donation/organ-donation/


http://donatelife.net/understanding-donation/organ-donation/


http://www.organtransplants.org/.

It Takes a Village...

It takes a village…

I went to get my hair cut today (always a fun event these days).  As I was sitting waiting for my stylist, I was busy texting my BC buddy Phyllis.  Phyllis had her bilateral mastectomies a few weeks ago and had some questions regarding recovery.  Our favorite surgeon, Dr. C, has deployed since her surgery (remember, he’s an Army Reservist) and she wasn’t getting quality answers from his sub, so I gave her my two cents.  I know how particular Dr. C is about us healing properly after surgeries.  He says it makes reconstruction easier if everything heals correctly the first time.  Seeing how good my reconstruction looks after I sort of followed his explicit instructions, I can’t fault the guy. ;0)

My hairstylist, K, has a very dear friend who is a breast cancer survivor, so we BC girls are near and dear to his heart.  K has a big heart anyway, but he’s always up for helping the community with anything related to breast cancer.  Anyway, the last time I got my hair cut, his friend had just had a major cancer setback.  Naturally, my first question to him today was to ask how she was doing.  Thankfully, she’s okay at the moment - “okay” being a relative term when you’re discussing cancer setbacks.

So, our conversation wended its’ way through discussions of mutual friends and acquaintances that have been through treatment or are going through treatment.  Unfortunately, K has just had another good friend diagnosed with breast cancer.  She is a young mother with an infant daughter and just had bilateral mastectomies.  The irony of her situation is that she is a tattoo artist who spends each October giving tats to breast cancer survivors. 

And then K’s also now worried about another young woman who has some suspicious lumps.  The young woman can’t get anyone to take her seriously because of her age and her lack of health insurance.  For crying out loud!  When are the medical professionals going to get it through their heads that YES, young women do get breast cancer!  I know that not all medical professionals are like that, but seriously, there are far too many out there. 

Case in point: had I taken what the doctor that I saw when I went in for my early follow-up mammogram referral at face value, my outcome might not have been nearly as “rosy” as it is right now.  The doctor I saw told me that my lump (that had only been a teeny tiny spot on a mammogram less than two months prior) felt like normal breast tissue and that “most breast cancers are closer to the chest wall”.  She didn’t want to write the referral for me, but I insisted – thank goodness!  When she finally did follow-up with me several weeks later after reading my mammography report to tell me that I should get a biopsy, I had already had my biopsy and had been diagnosed with breast cancer. 

At the time, I was so livid I couldn’t even talk – huge, I know.  Despite the radiologist identifying something suspicious on a previous mammogram, she had tried to brush me off three weeks earlier.  Thankfully, I knew better than to accept her flippant comments.  So what if I was young?  I knew something wasn’t right and she should have listened to me and taken me seriously.  Yes, even after almost two years, her blasé attitude toward my concerns still infuriates me!! 

But, I digress.  I gave K some resources for the young woman to check out and then promptly got online when I got home to see if there were more.  Thankfully, there are. 

This all got me thinking.  The saying goes that it takes a village to raise a child, but it also takes a village to get through a traumatic illness like breast cancer.  The “village” surrounds and protects you.  It provides what you need to get you through not just the day to day, but the year-to-year, milestone to milestone.  It cheers when things are going well and it rallies behind you when things aren’t.  The village “raises” you.

Some of my favorite "villagers"

I was blessed to be put in touch with so many wonderful people, resources, and healthcare professionals when I was beginning my cancer journey.  Thankfully, I never had to worry about insurance, how the kids were getting to activities, or what was going to be served for dinner.  I had friends and family fly in from out of town or drive over from across town (or down the street in Lynn's case) to help out when I needed it.  Through the wonders of the Internet, I was fortunate to have a “global village”.   I met people from all over the world who happily became my “villagers”.

Now, I’m on the other side and I’m trying to be a good villager - to help those that come after me.  That being said, below is a list of resources to check out regarding financial help when dealing with breast cancer and what your rights are as a breast cancer patient.  I’m sure I missed some and that there are plenty of other sites that have helpful information.  Please feel free to share those with me.

http://www.dol.gov/ebsa/publications/whcra.html (This site explains what provisions insurance companies are required by federal law to provide breast cancer patients.)

http://www.info-komen.org/site/PageServer?pagename=kaa_breastcancerbillofrights  (This is the link to Susan G. Komen Advocacy Alliance to sign a petition for the Breast Cancer Bill of Rights.)

http://www.youngsurvival.org/ (The Young Survivor’s Coalition is a group that specifically addresses the needs of young women affected by breast cancer.)

http://www.breastcancer.org/tips/paying/no_insurance.jsp (This site has info regarding how to pay for breast cancer treatment when you have no insurance.)

http://www.thebreastcaresite.com/tbcs/QualityOfLife/InsuranceLegal/HealthInsurancefortheBreastCancerPatient.htm (check out the section specifically about the uninsured)

http://www.cancercare.org/questions/147 (This link provides answers regarding what programs might be available for the uninsured)

http://www.breastcancerinformationhelp.com/breast_cancer_no_health_insurance.html

http://www.cdc.gov/cancer/nbccedp/ (This site details how to get free mammograms - if diagnosed, treatment is covered)

http://breastintentions.org/site/nj/ (formally Breast Friends Forever - the organization that provides emotional, intellectual, spiritual and financial needs to young women and their families affected by breast cancer.)

http://colormepink.net/ (Color Me Pink is a local store in Centerville, GA that caters specifically to the needs of all breast cancer survivors and their families.  Judy Mason is the owner and is very knowledgeable about local resources.)

http://www.thebreastcancersite.com/clickToGive/home.faces?siteId=2 (Go to this site daily and click to provide free mammograms for women in need.)

http://www.nationalbreastcancer.org/  (This is a great general information website that I used quite a bit in the beginning.)

http://www.breastcancer.org/ (This is another great general info site.)

And last, but not least, I’m always available to help out.  Call me, text me, send me smoke signals, whatever. 

I hope this helps anyone in need.  As I said, it takes a village…

Ladies, check your girls.  Gents, check your girls’ girls. :0)

Gen =)

Overcooked

Yesterday was New Recipe Night at our house.  We have New Recipe Night at our house because we are fortunate enough to have good eaters.  Well, maybe not so much fortunate as if you don’t eat what Mom makes, you don’t eat.  Trust me.  Joe has, on several occasions, sent any one of the kids to bed if they make overly critical comments about what’s for dinner.  Honestly though, our kids are generally amenable to trying new things, but only if Mom makes them.

Last night’s new recipe was Chicken with Roasted Almonds and Pomegranate Vinaigrette.  One of the steps involves, go figure, toasting the almonds.  I was trying to pay close attention to them, but as it always is with those kinds of things, as soon as I took my eyes off of the pan, the almonds got overcooked.  Thankfully, I had plenty more sliced almonds, so I tossed out the first batch and tried again, but that got me thinking…

I realized in toasting those almonds, that I too am currently overcooked.  No, I don’t have a wicked sunburn from lolling beside the pool; I’m just mentally, and probably a bit physically overcooked.  Joe and I are racing in Racine 70.3 in two and a half weeks.  At this point, I’m not going to cram any more fitness into my body, but I do need to maintain what I’ve got so my long and intense workouts continue. 

I knew something was up when I didn’t even look forward to my eleven mile run on Monday.  I was, in fact, dreading it.  That was my first clue because, as you all know, I love to run.  Yes, once I got out there and started running I did feel somewhat better mentally, but I was physically tired for the rest of the day.  I like when exercise energizes me.  I don’t like when it wears me out. 

I felt like this at the end of my marathon training and when I raced Racine 70.3 in 2010.  I didn't feel like this before Augusta 70.3, but I had other things on my mind before that race, namely doing what I needed to do so that I would have another season of racing, among other things.  I didn’t enjoy the last few long runs, swims and bike rides, and I was just looking forward to getting each race over with!  That’s how I feel right now.  I just want the race to be over with, to check the box as it were. 

Don’t get me wrong, I feel incredibly fortunate that I’m able to race, especially that I’m going to race with Joe this year.  I’m just nervous and tired of my workouts having to have a purpose.  I want to swim, bike and run when I want to and for however long I want to, not when and how my training schedule dictates I do.  I want to do well; I want to better my time from two years ago before breast cancer was part of our lexicon and lives.  The only pressure on me is that which I put on myself.   Joe is proud of me for just getting out there and racing.  He loves me regardless of if I place first or last.  The feeling is mutual. 

Joe and I have very different race goals, but part of me still wants to “measure up” to him.  Whereas I just want to finish and better my time from 2010, Joe wants to race and race HARD.  He’s willing to put forth the effort necessary to make that happen.  I am not.  It’s partly because I feel guilty taking that much time away from the kids to train, and partly I just don’t want to work that hard.  Seriously. 

When people learn that I’ve done several half-Ironman races, they generally ask if I’m ever going to do a full Ironman race.  The same holds true for when people find out that Joe has done four Ironman races.  My responses are always the same – “Heck no!  I don’t want to work that hard!”  Or, if I’m feeling a bit sassy, “No.  I’m only half-assed.”   Saying that always makes me feel a little bit like I’m giving up, but then, I know my injury-prone body’s limitations.  I’m not willing to risk permanent injury just for bragging rights, no matter how snazzy the medal or the venue is.

Joe is fortunate enough to not have those same limitations so he puts it all out there, pushing his body to the limits.  I am amazed at what he can do.  I get such a thrill watching him race just like when he flies.  The sky and the road are his domains. 

I’m still not sure what my domain is, but I think it involves a Word document and a computer keyboard.  When I write, I am willing to take the time necessary to put forth a piece I’m proud of.  When, as Joe says, “the muse is upon me”, the world stops, well, temporarily at least.  I am a mom after all and we mommies can’t completely check out, but I will admit that sometimes I do spend HOURS writing and re-writing and editing. 

So, if writing is my “thing”, why do I train and race?  Why do I allow myself to get overcooked?  Good question.  The most obvious answer is that it’s a good way to keep fit, and considering how vital my fitness was to my recovery and to my long-term outlook, it’s something that I can’t afford to not do.  I don’t have to race; I could just train, but if you’re not training for something, it’s a slippery slope to not training one day to many days and then doing nothing at all.  Let’s face it, humans are a lazy bunch and I’m no different from the rest. 

And so, I train and race and get overcooked.  I will probably get worse before I get better.  The good news is, like the almonds, I’ve got more in me and my family will still love me, even if I am slightly overcooked. 

Today I will do my last long ride before the race.  Tomorrow will be my last long swim and Monday will be my last long run.  Each day is another day closer to my race, one workout closer.  I know on race day I will be excited and nervous, ready to get going and ready to get done.  I’ll be ready to see what my body can do, if all the cooking has paid off.  I know I will not be a contender for any awards, but when I cross the finish line and hear Joe yelling my name and smiling, I will have my reward.  The overcooking will be worth it. 

P.S.  Here’s the recipe if you’re interested.  It earned five out of five thumbs up in the Matchette house.

Chicken with Roasted Almond and Pomegranate Vinaigrette

2 c. pomegranate juice

4 thin-sliced chicken or turkey breasts

¼ c. + 2 T extra-virgin olive oil

Kosher salt

Freshly ground pepper

¼ c. chopped tarragon

½ c. sliced almonds, toasted

     1.)   In a large sauté pan, bring pomegranate juice to a full boil.  Cook until reduced to ½ cup, about 7-10 minutes

     2.)  Toast almonds in a small sauté pan

     3.)  Preheat grill/grill pan/broiler on high.  Coat chicken with 2 tablespoons olive oil and season generously with salt and pepper.  Grill or broil until cooked through, about 2-3 minutes per side, to an internal temperature of 170 degrees F.    

     4.)  Combine pomegranate reduction with tarragon and the ¼ cup olive oil; season to taste with salt and pepper.

     5.)  Spoon pomegranate vinaigrette over chicken and sprinkle with almonds.  Serve with mashed sweet or regular potatoes and green beans.

Serves: 4

Hook me up, Scotty...

I’ve never been a three-bra-hook kind of gal, except of course for when I was nursing, but then when I was nursing, my boobs took on a life of their own.  After my mastectomies, I was no-bra-hook kind of gal for a while.  When I began running again post-mastectomies, I had to get used to the sensation of nothing moving.  Seriously, nothing moved since my skin had adhered to the muscle that was now directly under the surface of my skin.  The loose saggy skin left behind in the aftermath of nursing three kids had been cut away along with the cancer.  It was the weirdest sensation to go running and have no chest movement after thirty years of bounce and yet, it was somewhat freeing.  So this is what it feels like for guys to run.  Interesting, as Jamie would say.  Too bad I still had to wear a shirt.    

Then came reconstruction.  I technically didn’t have to wear a bra anymore to keep things in their proper place; the implants were more than happy to stay perky in the pockets that Dr. C created just for them.  That is, I didn’t while I was just going about my daily business, the mundane stuff anyway – Cinderella chores, taking the kiddos to and fro, PTO stuff, work. 

My daily business though as you all know also includes some form of training.   I discovered early on after my reconstruction that the new “girls” liked to move around when I exercised.  Movement?  Huh?  After many months of no movement, this new movement was a bit disconcerting.  Not wanting to wreak havoc on Dr. C’s handiwork, I decided that I needed to invest in some better quality sports bras than the Target specials that I’d been getting away with for years.  Besides going from a not-even-an-A-cup to a busty B-cup, the Target specials were a bit tight and not at all supportive.  The girls needed to know who was boss!

No, this is not me modeling the bra.

Being an Athleta-sponsored athlete, (shameless plug here) http://www.athleta.net/ Athleta asks that we, when possible, do product testing and provide feedback, good or bad about their products.  So, needing some good strap-‘em down, lock and load kind of bras, I went to the Athleta website www.athleta.com, looked at some reviews, and made my selection – the VaVa Sports Bra

http://athleta.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=46915&vid=1&pid=903749.  It was rated for high impact sports, something an age-group triathlete/runner like me needs, had mostly good reviews, and last, but definitely the most enticing reason, on sale.  

DANG!  Who knew good bras were so expensive!  These suckers should be made with saffron and silk for the prices you bigger busted gals have to shell out to avoid making a scene when you head out for a simple little workout!!!  But back to the bra… The two biggest complaints noted were that the bra didn’t provide enough support for bigger busted girls (not a problem for me) and that it was a bit of a doozy to get into.  Come on.  Seriously?  How hard could it be to get into a sports bra?!

The bra, when it arrived, looked rather formidable.  It was definitely a “full-coverage” bra in the front that lifted and separated the girls, and for me anyway, strapped them down tightly.  Joe assessment of this bra was more colorful.  He said it “…straps them down so that there is no molecular movement.”  The back was a keyhole back with three hook and eyes to cinch it down.  I can do this I thought.  No problem.  Heck, I’ve been wearing a bra for thirty years what could really be so difficult about getting into this bra?  It didn’t come with a manual for cryin’ out loud.

Not only is it supportive in front,
it's supportive in the back as well.

Unlike a regular bra with hooks and eyes, you can’t just slip the straps down, swivel it around, do up the hooks, turn it around again and pull the straps back up.  Sorry, but I never mastered the hooking of the bra with the straps on my shoulders technique.  Not quite sure why, but I never had, but that little trick has eluded me since the beginning of my bra-wearing career.  Once you get this bra on like a regular sports bra (over your head) you can’t just slip the straps off to do the above-described method of hooking it up.  You must actually hook it up while completely wearing the bra.  Do you now have a great mental picture of me in my bathroom attempting to hook up my bra?  I have actually managed to do it by myself a grand total of twice. 

This morning, I was getting ready for a fifty-mile bike ride w/two of my cycling buddies and had laid out my “lock and load” bra as I affectionately refer to it.  I was soooo close to getting all the hooks done by myself, but perhaps my coffee hadn’t kicked in yet as the task, yet again, eluded me.  Thankfully, as I was wrestling with the monkey on my back known as the VaVa sports bra, Joe entered the bathroom.  Hooray!  Hook me up, Scotty! 

Typically, Joe would much rather be unhooking my bra than hooking it, but he knew I had to get this ride in, so hook it up he did, and off I went.  We are racing Racine 70.3 together in four weeks and I’m trying to fit in as much mileage as possible.  I’m hoping to better my time from 2010, the last and only time I did this race, and when I was still able to wear my Target specials. 

The weather today was perfect for a long bike ride – sunny and in the low sixties.  The company was good as well, two fellow Crazy Joes - Blake and Curtis.  As much as I’d love to ride with Joe, I can’t.  It’s just not fair to him.  A tough ride for me is just a easy little “recovery” ride for him so I ride with friends.  Thankfully, I’m not lacking in friends that will ride with me. :-)  Blake’s wife, Jane, is one of my BC buddies and he and I have raced together for the past couple of years.  Curtis was doing his first long ride after a bad spill a few weeks back.  The three of us ride well together so I was looking forward to a good ride.

The ride was new to me but not to them.  Blake had warned me that it was hilly, but that’s what I wanted.  Racine’s bike course is pretty flat, well, really flat actually, but hill work builds bike endurance and that, in turn, transfers well to run fitness.  So, despite my frequent sarcastic remarks about the hills, I was glad that we did them.   There were some really pretty parts, not much traffic and only two dogs.  “GET OFF OF THE COUCH” to the rescue.

It’s funny, but the hills that are tough for some aren’t nearly as hard for others.  We have one hill that we ride regularly that regularly kicks my butt, while Stef just toodles on up it.  As I curse my gears for not having more choices, she passes me, usually smiling, but not in a ha-ha, I just passed you kind of way; Stef’s just a generally happy person.  Well, she toodles up it when she’s not seven months pregnant like she currently is.  Now she has to work a little harder and I don’t see her pass me much anymore.  I’m sure that will go back to status quo in a few months.

Today, Blake warned me about a particular hill late in our ride.  Greeeeat, I thought.  When the hill showed up, it wasn’t nearly as bad as I expected it to be.  Surprise, surprise.  Did I fly up said hill?  Come on!  It’s me.  That would be a big fat no!  Still, it was a lot easier than one of the hills earlier in the ride.  Perhaps though, as Blake and Curtis were quick to snicker and point out (Honestly, it’s like riding with two brothers sometimes!), it was because I was in the correct chain ring, unlike earlier in the ride when I wasn’t and only discovered it when I reached the top of the hill.  I'm claiming chemo brain for that one!

After our ride, I was feeling pretty good, in spite of the hills.  I felt like I could have run afterwards, but I didn’t have time.  I had to get home and shower so that we could head off on the next adventure of the day.  Thankfully, that one didn’t require a lock and load bra, or any bra for that matter, just a nice simple tank top, thank you very much.

You’re probably wondering if after my ride, I had trouble getting out of my lock and load ‘em bra.  Surprisingly, no, unhooking the VaVa sports bra is a cinch, but alas, I can’t do “the girl trick” that Joe loves so much.  Would I recommend the three-hook VaVa sport bra?  Not unless you’re better at hooking your bra than I am or you like a little wrestling workout before your normal one.  ;0)

Happy National Running Day!

Today is National Running Day.  Did you get out there and run?  Did you even know that there was a “National Running Day”?  I did not, but considering the fact that there is a National Donut Day, it just makes sense to have a national running day.  How else will you burn off those Crispy Crèmes? :-)  

A sore, but happy runner

I really had not been planning on running today, but who could resist running on National Running Day?  Being one of those crazy runner people, not me!  I did a long run on Sunday and a short, but fast run yesterday before an almost fifty mile bike ride.  So, I took it easy today and only ran a quick one-mile after a twenty-minute swim and before a 17-mile bike.  Coach Joe just shook his head.  I was only supposed to swim today.   

Those of you that know me well know that I love to run.  Really.  I love to feel the pavement beneath my feet and feel the wind and sunshine kissing my face.  Do I love it everyday?  Nope.  I'm not a big fan of running when it's super hot and humid, otherwise I'm good to go on most days.  I enjoy the companionship of running with a buddy, but I also relish the solitude and the rhythm of running solo.  I really do my best thinking, praying, and detuning while running.  I can go out exhausted emotionally, mentally or physically and come back, even from a short run, rejuvenated, exhilarated. 

I have run since childhood but mostly just for fun.  In high school, I ran on the soccer field but rarely off of it.  Throughout my childhood and even into young adulthood, I would run with my dad for a little one on one time.  Typically our runs were no longer than a few miles, but I enjoyed them immensely.   I can close my eyes and still picture the route we would take, hear the sounds of the crickets and the traffic on those hot summer nights, just enjoying the being with my dad. 

Joe and I ran my first 5K in February of 2007,
 pushing the kids all the way

I am not afraid to run in the dark and still enjoy the solitude of a predawn run.  There’s nothing better than to be out running, watching the sunrise and dawning of a new day.  The day is still full of endless potential.    

I have always liked to run, but I had never run competitively until I did a 5K right before I did my first triathlon.  I still remember when running a mile was exhausting, even before chemo.  I could do a whole hour of step aerobics, but if you made me run, I would be gasping for breath like a fish out of water after only a quarter of a mile or so.  Slowly, year-by-year, I started adding mileage.  First it was 5Ks and then I did my first 10K.  I remember thinking Joe was nuts when he did his first half-marathon.  Now, the siren song of the half-marathon gets to me at least once a year.  My 5Ks have been given over to the kids; I run what they run, encouraging them all the way.

Jubilant after running my first half-marathon

I still remember the first time I told someone that I was a “runner”.  I was in the checkout line at Publix.  I don’t remember the exact circumstances, but I do remember feeling like the checker would call my bluff when I told her I was a “runner”.  I don’t look like a typical “runner”.  While I am a thin person with long legs, I am very short, despite what my inner self thinks.  Thankfully, the checker didn’t even blink twice; she actually said something encouraging and I went on my merry way, secure in the fact that I was officially, a “runner”.    

Two of my favorite little runners

Nowadays, I run with more purpose than I did as a kid, and even a few years ago.  Back in my early triathlon days, I ran so that I didn’t collapse at the finish line and end up with one of those, less than flattering finish line pictures.  Now, I run to get faster, to maintain my health and my weight.  I run to see what my body is capable of.  I still smile when I run, relishing in the fact that my legs can carry me to such distances.  I will never be swift or run effortlessly, but running to me is oh so sweet.  Am I a crazy runner?  Yup, and darn proud of it!

So, here’s to National Running Day!  Lace up your kicks and join us crazies.  Who knows, you might end up liking it as much as we do. :0)

"Curse" of the Dragon Tattoo Arm Sleeve

My big bad dragon!

As most of you know, I have a collection of compression arm sleeves that I wear to combat the lymphedema in my left arm secondary to my lymph node removal.  I wouldn’t wear them if I didn’t have to, but such is life.  I have one that has an Asian dragon motif on it, all in purples and blacks and oranges on a flesh-colored sleeve.  If you’re not looking closely or see me from a distance, it’s easy to mistake it for a “real” tattoo.  I really like it as it goes with a lot of different things and it’s a cool looking tattoo that I can take off.

Most of the time, people respond very positively to the sleeves.  Most of the time…

On Tuesday, I wore the abovementioned sleeve.  Lynn and I were out running errands, so we went to Wendy’s for lunch with the kids.  I was standing at the drink fountain while an older gentleman and his grandson filled their cups.  Neither gave me funny looks when the grandfather and I exchanged pleasantries. 

They happened to sit down near us with the man’s wife facing me.  They got themselves situated and then all bowed their heads to pray.  Shortly after that, I started to notice the covert glances and then felt the waves of disapproval emanating from the wife.  “What gives,” I thought to myself?  And then I happened to glance down at my arm.  Aha.  My dragon sleeve was the cause of this good Christian woman’s angst. 

I giggled to myself and filled Lynn in.  Lynn, always a big advocate for me and anything related to my disease, immediately offered to go over and say something to the woman.  Instead, I peeled the offending sleeve off to see if we could get a reaction out her (sassy, I know).  Alas, it didn’t; she wasn’t even looking.  Rats! 

Plan B: I dared Lynn to say something to the woman as we were leaving.  I know she would have too, but Josie needed a cup for water so I decided - no time like the present.  I boldly walked over to the offended woman’s table and politely informed the woman that the tattoo wasn’t real; that I had to wear the sleeve because I had had BREAST CANCER.  “Oh,” she said.  “I was just admiring how well it went with your outfit.” 

That woman is really lucky that I’m typically a polite person because I sooooo wanted to throw down the BS card!  “… how well it went with your outfit,” my foot!  Did she think that I couldn’t read her facial expressions, that I couldn’t feel the disapproval emanating from her body?  Seriously?! 

I try to be a pretty tolerant kind of person.  Of course there are things that I find unusual or sometimes disturbing, but who am I to judge?  It wasn’t like I was being disruptive or that my children were running amok and being obnoxious while I sat there doing nothing.   I was minding my own business and the kids (all five of them) were behaving better than some adults do in restaurants. 

That’s the second time that I’ve had such a negative reaction to my sleeve by a woman who appears to be somewhat “religious”.  The first woman almost asked me to leave her husband’s hospital room when I went to see him for speech therapy after his stroke.  I don’t get it.  Jesus wasn’t judgmental; what gives those women the right to be?

I just have three words for them: “Bless your heart!” ;0)